Placenta’s, Cancer, and Old Movie’s I Used To Love
11 January, 2010
07 January, 2010
They had us play with a placenta on the first day of being in the baby part of the hospital, most of my classmates thought it was cool, I thought it looked like a giant period clot and was kind of gross and iron-ish smelling. Ew. I thought I was here to play with babies, not placenta’s.
08 January, 2010
Today I found out that:
- we have more newborn deaths than any industrialized country.
- 1 out of 3 pregnancy’s are cesarean.
- I want a natural childbirth, even if it hurts like hell.
- there is such a thing as “designer deliveries” where people schedule their c-section, with a tummy tuck following right after. HAH!
09 January, 2010
Found out my papa[read: grandpa] might have cancer. There’s a big lump in his throat. Literally. I say might, but everyone seems pretty positive. Everyone keeps visiting, as though they’re saying their goodbyes. I want to yell at them all. Not let them in the house. Tell them to go home, that there is time enough for this. No more brownies and pot roasts. It won’t change the way this could end. I’m starting to feel the meaning of what Dante said in Inferno, “There is no greater grief than to remember days of joy when misery is at hand.”
10 January, 2010
Found out how putting a due date on things really makes people say a lot of things. Funny how we wait until the last minute for things. Or maybe it’s just that we are more pressured to remember.
11 January, 2010
Mostly just watched silly movies that I used to love, like “The Babysitter’s Club” and “Watership Down.”
[Listening to: Snow Patrol | Run]
